never again

 

inside a hospital somewhere in manila...

nurses are rushing inside the emergency room...

doctors trying to revive a man...

blood all over his face...

can't even recognize him...

his wife and kids crying outside the door...

and i was sitting in a corner near the fire exit...

petrified...

freezing...

i keep on asking myself...

"is he still alive?"

2 hours ago i was in a birthday party of my cousin...

singing with my relatives...

throwing silly jokes on them...

dancing drunk and dizzy...

we ran out of beer...

my cousin asked me if i could drive him to the nearest convenient store...

though i can't barely stand up straight i said...

"sure no problem"

we hit the road...

the nearest store left open that time is about a mile away...

my cousin asked me if i could go faster...

50mph my cousin shouted...

"DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW TO DRIVE?"

under the influence of alcohol i enjoy putting my life at risk...

i love the adrenalin rush...

i open the window at my side...

and felt the strong wind hitting my face...

going 60mph...

the excitement...

the thrill of being in danger...

going 70mph red lights on...

beat that red light...

another red light...

pass it again...

i told my cousin...

"PUT ON YOUR SEAT BELT!!!"

but he didn't put it on...

instead he went to the backseat of my car...

i can hear my cousin screaming...

"STOP THE CAR!!!"

i didn't listen...

i pretend not hearing him...

i hit the gas instead...

another red light...

"BANG!!!"

80mph my car hit a cab crossing...

the cab take a 360 degree spin before hitting a fire hydrant...

my car in the middle of the street...

both cars are totally wrecked...

people screaming...

i can't move...

i can't hear a thing...

i can't speak...

staring at the by standers...

wheres my cousin?

i saw him running...

scared of what happened...

the next thing i can remember i'm in a hospital...

thinking...

i keep on asking my self...

"did i kill him?"

the cab driver was announced dead after an hour of struggling...

the sun is rising...

i told my self...

"i'll never drive a car again..."

never again....